"Alister's Year"

Completely bullshit, I tell myself everytime that next year will be better but it never does.I give up on praying cause the more I do the more god gives me the opposite on what I pray for.There's been more bad things that happened than good things that happened so far.

Its not that I'm an atheist its just that I need help now not 5 years from now. The fuck up part about this year for at least 9 months I had to deal with my problems on my own.I guess I still have to as I don't tell my problems that much but instead just keep it in.I have soo much anger towards alot of people and if one day I can't take it I will seriously go up to their faces and slap the living shit out of them.If you have access to my private link you'll know who are they.For those who don't..HAHA xp

Its not that I'm jealous its about their fucking attitudes and style.Anyway will post more about that in my private blog to avoid any bloodshed.I do believe in god but I strongly believe that he doesn't like me one bit.I think he also realized how useless I am and decided to help people who would be of a good use.

There's alot of rumors going around how I don't care about my bestfriend but well Its not true.So Please shut the fuck up because it hurts deep down when people say that.Alot of people say that me bestfriend is angry/pissed with me but just remember

"Its okey to be angry and never let go,it only gets harder the more that you know, when you get lonely if no one's around,You know that I'll catch you when you're falling down,we came together but you left alone,and I know how it feels to walk out on your own,maybe someday I will see you again,and you'll look me in my eyes and call me your friend"

-" I know I've been a useless friend but you haven't been,I'm sorry.. "- Alister.T