*EDITED LYRICS BUT DESCRIBES HOW I'm FEELING.


If I could say this to her I'd keep saying this to her.
If I could get the guts I'd tell her this
To show her how I feel about her, how proud I am that got her
Now you'd probably get this picture from my personal messages
That I'm a Cutting-packing drug addict that lives with painkillers
But I wanna take this time to be perfectly honest, cause there's alot of shit
That I keep bottled that hurts deep inside of my soul
And just know that I grow colder the older I grow
This boulder on my shoulder gets heavy and harder to hold
And this load is like the weight of the world, and I think my neck is breaking
Should I just give up, or try to live up to these expectations
Now look, I love her more than life in it self
But I got a life thats determined to make my life living hell
But I handle it well, giving the circumstances that I'm down with
Its to bad she could had someone else loving her
But the years that I've wasted
Is nothing to the tears that I've tasted, so here's what I'm facing:
Lonely nights, six years of rehabilitation, I've went to hell for her
I've been hit for her, I've hit peoples backs and make them bent over backwards for her.

But fuck it, its not over there's more reasons to cry more
I don't got her, the only girl that I adore
She has travelled back to the arms of her rightful owner..not me..
And suddenly it seems like my shoulder blades have just got heavier
Its like the worst gift you can get, the weight has been added
And now it feels like the world's on my shoulder
Cause She doesn't know that her friend love her.

Remember if you ever want something I'll be here?Well remember I'm always here for you..i love you..-Alister.T