Will This Be My Downfall?

I don't know what to do,I don't think I can keep this inside any longer.I just need to let it out even if people knows about it I just need to say it especially to that person.But I can't..must not.It really hurts soo bad.Can't look at photos which involves her just hurts soo much and makes me angry and jealous for some reason.I'm not a person who has problems with anger I'm over it already but everytime I see photos of her just makes me angry,hurts me and jealous at the same time.But the phuck up bit is I want to see her photo especially when I can't see her in person.

Its taking over my life.My fitness and performance in football is dropping like hell I can't even dribble or stop an incoming ball properly.I find it difficult to sleep at night and it just hard to focus on things because I can't stop thinking about her.It really hurts.I'm more worried about this then my trip to the doctor on December 20 which will determine if I need an operation or not.Take my mobile phone wanting to text her but I dare not.Pick up the telephone line wanting to call her but I dare not.I would cycle to her house if she wanted me to anything for her...anything.