Hey,still not in the mood..sighs,its getting harder and harder to go pass the day.Been wanting to drink coffee but i made a promise to to my bestfriend not too..I know i made that promise at least a year ago but i do keep my promises,I dont blame her if she drink's and break the promise.

Been craving to eat painkillers but again i promise her..Its soo stupid I'm keeping all these promises but i dont know..Cutting myself well obviously that wwas one of the promises i made so yeah.What to do im deeply depress,been crying and with no one to turn to..I should be getting use to this cause i dont deserve a good life and this is aint my girst time anyway been having 4 years of bad luck straight.

Tomorrow going to the hospital,hope i get to stay there for any reason! I NEED HELP BADLY!!!For all i care poke a million injections into my ass yet it doesnt compare to all the effin pain im going through at this very moment.Well the England Vs Russia match is in a few hours gonna get ready.

Will try to post a poem or whatever tomorrow till then...